so it is both.
i messaged a 'close' friend of mine on facebook the other day telling them that i was sorry for not saying bye on the last day of the semester, and that they are someone i could never forget and that i will miss them (TWICE!!). I said " i"ll miss you " two times in the message. the reason as to why i did not say goodbye was because i didnt want to feel anything that would hurt me later on. i didnt want to say good bye because i have very very very strong feelings towards them. but these feelings arent for the right reasons. these are surface feelings that have rooted themselves to my heart. they have made me obsessed with them, made me go through pain and suffering. this ONE person made me realize that i am in fact, i hate to say this, a shallow person. wow.. im baring my soul lol.. BUT back on track here.. ive been waiting for six days now.. SIX DAYS for this person to reply. I know they must have read it because they are accepting friends! they either dont feel the need to reply because i dont have a little one (1) on the envelope thinggy on my Facebook home page. THEY DIDN'T EVEN SEND A TEXT! what does this say?! does this say that i told them too mcuh in the message? impossible. i kept it short and to the point so that my TRUE feelings wont be portrayed. maybe i should have said bye when the semester ended and saved myself all this.. this.. hurt.
