the heart and mind are lost

What if it cant be done? yeah, no one said that it would be fun, but with all the fights and tears, what am i going to do with all my fears? this heart and mind are trying to find what it is they need and to find the lead. finding it but not falling because then i'll be lying on the floor balling. each one can only handle a certain amount but enough so that i can no longer count as strong as i am, i can break with a small 'bam' sometimes breaking down is needed because i think that He can't hear what i pleaded. as much as i know that that is a lie its enough to make this numb man cry this is all in my heart I'm letting it out because its tearing me apart my heart and mind are both naive all i can do is hope that soon, they will believe.